Monday, 15th of January 2018. Supposedly "blue monday", the most depressive day of the year. Although I have been feeling a little bit under the weather recently, today was actually very positive. I didn't get much sleep but still managed to get up and head to campus to do some work. I am defending my Bachelor's thesis on Thursday! 

 

Isn't that crazy? That today I registered for the VERY LAST semester of the Media and Communication programme at Jönköping University? To me it feels almost surreal. If you've been checking in here regularly since I started this blog in August 2015, you know what a whirlwind these past 2 and a half years have been. As I'm writing this, I can hear the familiar sounds from the student club Akademien. The heavy base pumping and the new students chanting. It's their first day at JU and their very first kick-off night! Feels like yesterday I was in their shoes (or should I say overalls?), dancing the night away in a new city with lots of new people. I remember feeling slightly anxious and sometimes overwhelmed, but I was also thrilled. Thrilled and excited for this adventure I was embarking on, not knowing where it would take me. I hope that they will also look back in a few years time and feel... What is it that I'm feeling?

 

I feel grateful, especially for the many wonderful people I've met. It's cliché, but it's difficult to imagine a time when I didn't know them! I've seen some of them today, which lifted my spirits after a few days of being low. I'm grateful to have crossed paths with beautiful souls during each of the five semesters I've studied here. I also feel at home, which I obviously didn't really do during that first kick-off night. At least not the way I do now. In about six short weeks my student room will be empty, and it will be time for me to move and relocate. In a way, I always knew that that day would come (naturally, I couldn't stay in a student accomodation forever, could I?), but still I don't feel quite ready. I feel sad to be moving out, actually.

 

It's rarely that simple though, is it? I'm sad to leave this place and time behind, but I'm also excited. Excited for the internship that I'm heading off to! Maybe this feeling is similar to the one I felt in August 2015... a little bit anxious but overall thrilled! If what's to come is anything at all like what has been, then I know I'll be OK.